My first Account with find a grave, https://www.findagrave.com/user/profile/46815847
however I no longer have AOL, or that email, and cant get into it LOL.

Darrells Main page is here. https://www.findagrave.com/memorial/12637693/darrell-t.-esgar

I miss "My Darrell" every single day. Most of all I am very grateful for the one night in March of 1990, when Darrell screwed up all of his courage and told me how he truly felt. Darrell said. "Ive had a lot of time to think about this, especially while we were apart. You're the focus of my life. Every good time I have ever had, you were a part of. Yeah, were best friends, but we are more than that too. I love you very much, and I always have. Even before I started seeing Gina, but you said you had a boyfriend, and we couldn't change things between us. I thought dating Gina would make it stop, and it hasn't. And she was right.".

What Gina was right about ? Were all her accusations she threw at him about his feelings for me. Thinking about me while he was with her, accusing him of pretending she was me, etc. As to his comment about when we were apart... Unbeknownst to Many, Gina (Darrell's cheating, on again off again ex-girlfriend), had demanded in late September, that Darrell and I not see or speak to each other. "for the sake of their relationship". And we didn't see or speak to each other for 3 straight months. That includes Ricks party when Peanut and Sean got out of the hospital. Then, when Gina gave Darrell Mononeucleosis in late November, she actually tried to spin her lies around on him, and say I gave it to him,(because I am a nurse and have access to those kinds of germs LOL) and it was her proof that we were running around behind her back. Thats when Darrell exploded and screamed in Gina's face. Thats the fight everyone heard about. Ken was calling me then to break up Darrell and Gina, but we also Knew that was something Darrell had to do himself. Darrell decided after Gina gave him mono and denied it, to break all of Gina's rules after that, So he had his mom call me :) Thats what got us talking again.

Once we were reunited, we had many adventures including a trip to Mt Baldy for Valentines day, trips to Big Bear for beef Jerky, and many, many other places. Gina thought she had Darrell on a shelf. Sitting by himself at home, waiting on her call while she disappeared for the thousandth time. Darrell and I had known each other for almost 5 years, and dated the last 9 months of his life.

We made our plans to be together, and raise our grand children, with our matching rocking chairs. We had walks on the Huntington Beach Pier almost nightly, and dinners out. Hiding our cars at the Westminster Mall, because Darrell was afraid Gina would drive by and see my truck there and have another blow out. he feared her. So we hid my truck at Hoag Hospital, so Gina didn't find out, and even once almost got caught by Darrell's best friend Ken, when Darrell went to his house to get his jacket. Darrell feared Gina for good reason. For legal reasons I can't go into why here.

Darrell and I had our "4 rules of engagement" to avoid Gina finding out we were dating, and they served us well. She never did find out. Darrell just wanted her to go away from his life and never come back. At the same time, Darrell was trying to move out of his parents house so Gina couldn't find him. We did go house hunting a couple of times, and we talked about him moving out to South Orange County where I lived, but Darrell felt it was too far from his parents house, in case something happened. We even timed the distance from my front door to his. and by the time August rolled around, Darrell and I had our plans in place for him to go to college, and together we wanted to buy a house in his parents neighborhood. So our kids to walk to their grandparents home for overnights. We talked of a long life together and raising our grandchildren. Even our matching rocking chairs.

I had called Darrell to break our date on August 11th- because of work, and at the end of our phone call, Darrell joked "I'll see you at sunrise". He was so excited about our date on Monday the 20th. We had to wait that long because I had a new patient with brain cancer, and Darrell had inventory, and didn't want to abandon his team to do it on their own. We were both supposed to have off that Monday of August 20th, and We couldn't wait to be together again. I was going to surprise him at his work on that last Sunday, wear a favorite dress, because I had some photos made for his wallet (pictured above) as proof for him we were really dating, and I had changed my mind that last Sunday, about going to shop to surprise him, because I was tired from a week full of 12 hour shifts, and I wanted to prepare for our date the next night.

Darrell was killed that very same Sunday afternoon.

In the aftermath of the murders, Darrell's best friend Ken told me that Darrell had talked to him (approximately August 14th 1990) and Darrell said he wanted to go ring shopping for me. but they didn't wind up going because of Ken's job. Ken forever blamed himself for not stopping by the shop that Sunday evening for his meeting with Darrell. Ken always felt he could have stopped the robbery, and torturned himself with thoughts of Darrell hoping he would show up and interrupt the robbery. Ken always thought he could have saved them, and regretted the rest of his life for not stopping by.

When you read the new paper reports about the case, you will see Gina's name. What the papers don't tell you, is that Gina got pregnant by another guy named Jared, while she disappeared on Darrell for about 8 months. Gina was nearly 7 months along in her pregnancy at the time Darrell was killed. It got back to me that Gina was blaming Darrell for her pregnancy. I know he was never the father because Darrell was with me. Gina married her baby daddy 5 months after Darrell was killed. All while telling the world that Darrell was "the most important person in her life", and grandstanding that their relationships was ongoing. Gina stated in the papers that she wanted " 5 more minutes with Darrell". I can tell you for certain that Darrell never wanted to see Gina again. What you also don't know is that Gina tormented Darrell on many levels. Not just the cheating, but treating him like a walking ATM, the verbal abuse, accusations, standing him up, cutting off his friends, etc. Maybe you saw some of that personally as I did.

Just before the Funeral, I bought a dress, I had a length of my hair cut and braided. I waited until everyone had put their items in the casket. I didnt want Gina to see what I put in and remove it. Gina put a red rose on Darrells chest and wrote a letter she made sure his mother read. About how she would have married Darrel, etc. Which I can tell you was never something Darrell wanted. Gina told many lies about Darrell after he died, that I could fill a book with. Suffice it to say Darrell didnt like Gina. So I waited until everyone else had their turn, and then I put the braid of my hair in Darrell's casket, under his left arm, close to his heart. I'm sure it is dust now, but it is Our Dust. Science will always find us together. Darrell has not been alone in his grave for even one day.

In the months After the Murders, As Gina carried on like nothing happened, planning her wedding to Jared and giving birth, I was left to figure out how to still keep breathing after the loss of My Darrell. And I couldn't tell anyone anything because of their own grief, and their own shock. And seriously who was going to believe me? Ken of course, and probably Rick and Gus. Because Darrell had told them. They gave him the idea for that awful movie, LOL. And me making a stir would have gone against what Darrell wanted. He was a peaceful person.Darrell didn't want anyone upset. Least of all his parents, Everyone was going through enough as it was. Darrell just wanted Gina to go away, and for it all to "blow over". He wanted to keep everyone happy. We were simply waiting. Darrell wanted Gina to "Sail On" and he called her "Despicable" saying "I wouldn't want that on my soul when the time comes". In reference to her abuse of him. Thats the worst he said of her.

And then he was gone. My entire future with him wiped away. Our future house, our future kids, his education, everything. Of Course I didn't forget, and I didn't "just leave.". There is so much no one knows. I had to move away, because everywhere I looked was a memory. Even a red rose for all the ones he left on my car, and sent to my job became too much. The mountains of Saddle back, and Big Bear, the beach at Huntington Pier. the smell of the ocean on the wind. The ice cream Parlor, the list goes on.

Some people fear death, but I look at going to heaven like a trip to Fiji. Darrell was devout and so am I. Today I simply wait for the Rapture, and look forward to when we are reunited with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To hear Darrell call my name once again.



To See more. Visit My Dad's Page.
https://www.findagrave.com/memorial/6414164/joseph-mancha-franklin

My first Account with find a grave, https://www.findagrave.com/user/profile/46815847
however I no longer have AOL, or that email, and cant get into it LOL.

Darrells Main page is here. https://www.findagrave.com/memorial/12637693/darrell-t.-esgar

I miss "My Darrell" every single day. Most of all I am very grateful for the one night in March of 1990, when Darrell screwed up all of his courage and told me how he truly felt. Darrell said. "Ive had a lot of time to think about this, especially while we were apart. You're the focus of my life. Every good time I have ever had, you were a part of. Yeah, were best friends, but we are more than that too. I love you very much, and I always have. Even before I started seeing Gina, but you said you had a boyfriend, and we couldn't change things between us. I thought dating Gina would make it stop, and it hasn't. And she was right.".

What Gina was right about ? Were all her accusations she threw at him about his feelings for me. Thinking about me while he was with her, accusing him of pretending she was me, etc. As to his comment about when we were apart... Unbeknownst to Many, Gina (Darrell's cheating, on again off again ex-girlfriend), had demanded in late September, that Darrell and I not see or speak to each other. "for the sake of their relationship". And we didn't see or speak to each other for 3 straight months. That includes Ricks party when Peanut and Sean got out of the hospital. Then, when Gina gave Darrell Mononeucleosis in late November, she actually tried to spin her lies around on him, and say I gave it to him,(because I am a nurse and have access to those kinds of germs LOL) and it was her proof that we were running around behind her back. Thats when Darrell exploded and screamed in Gina's face. Thats the fight everyone heard about. Ken was calling me then to break up Darrell and Gina, but we also Knew that was something Darrell had to do himself. Darrell decided after Gina gave him mono and denied it, to break all of Gina's rules after that, So he had his mom call me :) Thats what got us talking again.

Once we were reunited, we had many adventures including a trip to Mt Baldy for Valentines day, trips to Big Bear for beef Jerky, and many, many other places. Gina thought she had Darrell on a shelf. Sitting by himself at home, waiting on her call while she disappeared for the thousandth time. Darrell and I had known each other for almost 5 years, and dated the last 9 months of his life.

We made our plans to be together, and raise our grand children, with our matching rocking chairs. We had walks on the Huntington Beach Pier almost nightly, and dinners out. Hiding our cars at the Westminster Mall, because Darrell was afraid Gina would drive by and see my truck there and have another blow out. he feared her. So we hid my truck at Hoag Hospital, so Gina didn't find out, and even once almost got caught by Darrell's best friend Ken, when Darrell went to his house to get his jacket. Darrell feared Gina for good reason. For legal reasons I can't go into why here.

Darrell and I had our "4 rules of engagement" to avoid Gina finding out we were dating, and they served us well. She never did find out. Darrell just wanted her to go away from his life and never come back. At the same time, Darrell was trying to move out of his parents house so Gina couldn't find him. We did go house hunting a couple of times, and we talked about him moving out to South Orange County where I lived, but Darrell felt it was too far from his parents house, in case something happened. We even timed the distance from my front door to his. and by the time August rolled around, Darrell and I had our plans in place for him to go to college, and together we wanted to buy a house in his parents neighborhood. So our kids to walk to their grandparents home for overnights. We talked of a long life together and raising our grandchildren. Even our matching rocking chairs.

I had called Darrell to break our date on August 11th- because of work, and at the end of our phone call, Darrell joked "I'll see you at sunrise". He was so excited about our date on Monday the 20th. We had to wait that long because I had a new patient with brain cancer, and Darrell had inventory, and didn't want to abandon his team to do it on their own. We were both supposed to have off that Monday of August 20th, and We couldn't wait to be together again. I was going to surprise him at his work on that last Sunday, wear a favorite dress, because I had some photos made for his wallet (pictured above) as proof for him we were really dating, and I had changed my mind that last Sunday, about going to shop to surprise him, because I was tired from a week full of 12 hour shifts, and I wanted to prepare for our date the next night.

Darrell was killed that very same Sunday afternoon.

In the aftermath of the murders, Darrell's best friend Ken told me that Darrell had talked to him (approximately August 14th 1990) and Darrell said he wanted to go ring shopping for me. but they didn't wind up going because of Ken's job. Ken forever blamed himself for not stopping by the shop that Sunday evening for his meeting with Darrell. Ken always felt he could have stopped the robbery, and torturned himself with thoughts of Darrell hoping he would show up and interrupt the robbery. Ken always thought he could have saved them, and regretted the rest of his life for not stopping by.

When you read the new paper reports about the case, you will see Gina's name. What the papers don't tell you, is that Gina got pregnant by another guy named Jared, while she disappeared on Darrell for about 8 months. Gina was nearly 7 months along in her pregnancy at the time Darrell was killed. It got back to me that Gina was blaming Darrell for her pregnancy. I know he was never the father because Darrell was with me. Gina married her baby daddy 5 months after Darrell was killed. All while telling the world that Darrell was "the most important person in her life", and grandstanding that their relationships was ongoing. Gina stated in the papers that she wanted " 5 more minutes with Darrell". I can tell you for certain that Darrell never wanted to see Gina again. What you also don't know is that Gina tormented Darrell on many levels. Not just the cheating, but treating him like a walking ATM, the verbal abuse, accusations, standing him up, cutting off his friends, etc. Maybe you saw some of that personally as I did.

Just before the Funeral, I bought a dress, I had a length of my hair cut and braided. I waited until everyone had put their items in the casket. I didnt want Gina to see what I put in and remove it. Gina put a red rose on Darrells chest and wrote a letter she made sure his mother read. About how she would have married Darrel, etc. Which I can tell you was never something Darrell wanted. Gina told many lies about Darrell after he died, that I could fill a book with. Suffice it to say Darrell didnt like Gina. So I waited until everyone else had their turn, and then I put the braid of my hair in Darrell's casket, under his left arm, close to his heart. I'm sure it is dust now, but it is Our Dust. Science will always find us together. Darrell has not been alone in his grave for even one day.

In the months After the Murders, As Gina carried on like nothing happened, planning her wedding to Jared and giving birth, I was left to figure out how to still keep breathing after the loss of My Darrell. And I couldn't tell anyone anything because of their own grief, and their own shock. And seriously who was going to believe me? Ken of course, and probably Rick and Gus. Because Darrell had told them. They gave him the idea for that awful movie, LOL. And me making a stir would have gone against what Darrell wanted. He was a peaceful person.Darrell didn't want anyone upset. Least of all his parents, Everyone was going through enough as it was. Darrell just wanted Gina to go away, and for it all to "blow over". He wanted to keep everyone happy. We were simply waiting. Darrell wanted Gina to "Sail On" and he called her "Despicable" saying "I wouldn't want that on my soul when the time comes". In reference to her abuse of him. Thats the worst he said of her.

And then he was gone. My entire future with him wiped away. Our future house, our future kids, his education, everything. Of Course I didn't forget, and I didn't "just leave.". There is so much no one knows. I had to move away, because everywhere I looked was a memory. Even a red rose for all the ones he left on my car, and sent to my job became too much. The mountains of Saddle back, and Big Bear, the beach at Huntington Pier. the smell of the ocean on the wind. The ice cream Parlor, the list goes on.

Some people fear death, but I look at going to heaven like a trip to Fiji. Darrell was devout and so am I. Today I simply wait for the Rapture, and look forward to when we are reunited with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To hear Darrell call my name once again.



To See more. Visit My Dad's Page.
https://www.findagrave.com/memorial/6414164/joseph-mancha-franklin